yeah i havent written in a while... but not much has changed. i like this one guy, but i have no chance... it really sucks. today i finally got my new phone though... thats one exciting thing that has happened recently!!! ohh yeah and yesterday i went to the movies with nick, ricky, and mckenzie and saw white noise. then i got home and my mom told me no one was home so i walked into my rooma nd none of my lites were working. and i looked at my TV and it was all fuzzy like in the movie and u could hear voices. then i picked up the phone and started to call my mom (who was at the grocery store) and my dad jumped out of the closet... man he made me cry. i was scared... haha... i no im pathetic, but i g2g later!

two nights ago i spent the night at katlyns with a bunch of people! it was soooo fun!! although there were some issues, but thats ok. and while iw as there vanessa had to remind me of the black eye i got over the summer. haha!! i love you vanny!! yeah well i was in a dark room and i tripped over a matress and hit nicks head. great summer!!! woot woot!!! i cant wait till the next one! yeah... and then last night vanny spent the night and we watched the OC again. i got everyone hooked at katlyns!! haha WE LOVE RYAN!!! i would sooo do him.... but who wouldnt? hehe then i went to basketball practice today and we didnt have it!!! ughhh i was soooo pissed!! i woke up for nothing! grrr... well yeah i gotta go caz we have school tomorrow and im never gonna be able to get up on time if i dont go try to go to sleep now... i know im pathetic... o well luv ya!

*~*~if a guy says, "suck it", smile and say, "sorry, but its dangerous to put small objects in your mouth"~*~*

*~*~friends will tell you not to drink but best friends will buy the bottle and yell Chug it, bitch!~*~*

i think i hate you. and i hope im right.

December 31st, 2004

hey!!! well im sick of this shit... its like your only friends when its convienent for him. happy new year!!!! well i guess its not really happy for me... i stayed home alone... well i went to the movies with scott and reid, but thats it. and to me a new year is just another year of drama and broken promises.. who wants to celebrate that??? i mean you watch all these series... the OC for example... and the guy you love always makes in right on time to kiss you when the ball drops, its the only thing he cares about... who believes that? ill start believing all that bullshit when it happens to me. and i wish it would. but here starts another wonderful year.........

hmm today was pretty good too! i woke up and talked to dany and took quizzes on quizilla.com! haha i got a 151 on an IQ test... im smarter than i thought!! woot woot!! then i watched more OC episodes caz i have no life and then i went to the mall with dylan, christina, austin, devin, joe, and sweewey! we saw meet the fockers!!! haha that is a GREAT movie!!! go see it!!! haha i love the sex therapist in that movie!! and if there is a hat on my doorknob.... dont come in under any circumstances!! whipped cream may be involved... ((haha nick!)) and then we went bowling... i bowled a 59 this time...damnit, im getting worse!! ughhh and then we went over to dylans and austins and tried to do the worm... we got it on tape... hahahaha u should see it! and then i played with this zoom board thing... something having to do with balance, which most of you know probably wasnt the thing for me and then christina and austin stood there and let me throw balls at them to get my anger out!!! that was awesome!! yeah that was pretty much my day... sooo later!!!

~*~*~shes got you head over heels, and i cant even make you stumble~*~*~